Reality and the Mask of Acceptance

When I first created this blog I had a couple of intentions in mind: 1) To talk about diet, exercise, health and healing, and even sex.  2) To journal while navigating my way to better health.  Well, to say things were derailed rather quickly would be an understatement, but it doesn't mean I've abandoned my original purpose here.  While the theme still exists, so do those things that came in to completely throw me off-course.  Hey, that's part of the process, and the discussion doesn't really change all that much.

Blunt is good most of the time.  But let's face it, in polite society and circumstance requiring a bit more tact the conversation WILL change somewhat.  But THIS isn't polite society, and PC isn't the name of the game here.  While I have pulled back hugely when posting here, that's going to come to an end before long, because I'm simply too sick and tired to sugar-coat anything or leave out those details I really need to add to the conversation.

I know my reality.  I've talked about my reality.  I'm dealing with a chronic illness that gives little clues as to how it's going to progress in my life.  AIH isn't anything to take lightly, and I don't intend to.  Having said that, I'm adding that THIS is my new reality, one which I have to live with, deal with, and include in my blogs.  This isn't to say I'm giving in to the disease, btw.

Acceptance is a funny thing.  Anyone who's had to work their way to acceptance of any situation or circumstance knows that accepting what is can be a real bitch.  It's no different for me.  But acceptance is often something we WEAR, rather than something we have or do or feel.  It's true!  Think about it.  For example, the stages of grief END with acceptance, but what people forget is that the stages of grieving ISN'T linear but CIRCULAR.  We circle back and forth between those stages and no one can say just how long it will take before reaching acceptance---or even if you'll stay there once you arrive at that point.

It's just another mask we wear from time to time.  Acceptance isn't a dead-end destination and never will be.  For those who've been reading a while, you know I've gone back and forth with that whole acceptance thing quite a bit and am still going through it now.

Okay, I'm really tired and am going to talk myself into shutting up for the rest of the day... maybe. lol