Too Weak to Care.

Well, that's only partially true.  I care about my life, my health, my well-being, but it isn't easy when there is absolutely no energy or strength to deal with, well.. difficulty.  Today is a day fraught with fatigue and weakness, and the inability to make sense out of everything that's going on.  In other words, I suppose, this is just a typical day.

"Typical" has lost its meaning for me.  Is "Typical" now a significantly decreased quality of life?  Is "Typical" interchangeable with "Normal" in a way that crushes all hope of feeling better?  Finding answers to these and other questions have proven to be nearly impossible, and in the wake of confusion, in the midst of medications not working or bringing too many bad side effects on-board, while switching from one medication to the next, as my health continues to deteriorate... where in this do I apply the words "Typical" or "Normal"?  I honestly can't figure out how to do that without disintegrating any and all hope for improvement.

What a crappy trade-off.

I'm just too tired to continue typing, but I hope tomorrow will be a better day...