Diet & Holidays.

Yeah, like this one really needs explaining.  It's been asked of me... "HOW can you diet during the holidays?"  I have no answer, to be honest.  When it's time, your mind and body knows, and for me.. it was time.  It IS time.  Though I've been less focused in these last few days before Christmas.  Some of it is the depression rearing its ugly head, but it's also just a choice.  It's okay.  I've not given up.

My struggle with "To diet or not to diet" in the middle of the holidays is based on a few things, including (but not limited to) the lack of a support network.  During the days when the "Why bother?" thing sets in I'm least likely to stand firm in my resolve where health etc is concerned.  For all practical purposes I fall straight into the emotional survival mode that prevents me from just walking into the bedroom, crawling into bed and staying there.  Hey, I'm not going to sugarcoat this, because it is a rather serious matter.

I'm allowing myself wiggle room, forgiveness, and loosening the too-tight grip I have on the desire to force myself to stay the course.  Without some slack during the holidays it feels a lot light tying my own hands.  T isn't helping in this respect, so I have to help myself.  And this seems the best way to do that---cut myself some slack and just try to enjoy whatever this is.  Look, honestly, the holidays haven't felt like holidays in years.  Just a fact.

So here's to just going easier on myself.