That craving for the sweetness of a life fully lived---it happens when you're in an emotional deficit, when everything you attempt is met with argument, indifference, and someone else's utter need to control you. Me in this case. Let's just say it like it is.
Freedom is necessary and vital for me right now. I have to survive a few things going on with my health, issues that have yet to be only somewhat identified. Less than a week and I see a Dr., one I hope will have the answers, or at least have the determination to get to the bottom of things. Healing requires freedom, the absence of any outside, controlling person or people. It's critical for healing, having the freedom to be yourself fully and to breathe. To breathe.
I can't breathe. Who can when someone is standing on your oxygen supply?
All the healthy food in the world won't help if you can't breathe, when someone tries to control your life so completely that the walls close in.
I just want to step out into the sun and dip my foot in the lake.
Does anyone get at all what I'm saying?
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