The big deal, the not so big deal.. so then, what's the big deal?!

For the record, my goal isn't to be boney, for anyone who's curious.  My goal isn't to be a size 0 or even a 3 or probably not even a 5 again.  I love my curves, and I love looking like a woman.   My goal is health, vitality, vibrance.  My goal is to to feel and look like me again...

The Big deal is beauty.  It doesn't mean outside only, or inside only, or how we think only, or... well, dang.  You get the picture, right?  And it's not about being perfect.  Yeah.. we've all chased THAT one at least once in our lives and have pretty much found out how fast we don't achieve results based on perfection. lol  But hopefully, learning experiences being what they are we walked away from the whole thing a little better for it.

For the better part of several years I've nurtured only one part of me at a time.  And I don't mean just inside or outside, emotional well being, or maybe stimulating my imagination, or making sure that my sex drive remained healthy.  What?  You think you can just click 'autopilot on that and it will just take care of itself forever?  Think again!  But anyway, back to the subject.  For whatever reason I was only able to focus on one aspect at a time, leaving the other parts of me neglected or open to abuse (not always literal abuse, btw).  This did a lot of damage over time.

The not so big deal is that at any given point this can be corrected, and depending on how bad the damage is.. well.. it may take a little time, or a lot of time for things to be right again.  And of course, it also depends on one's environment, whether or not we have a little stress, a lot of stress, anxiety, good health, bad health, serious health conditions, if one has a strong support network (friends and family), or a weak or non-existent support network.  Oh trust, me it ALL makes a difference.  But when it comes down to it, it's ALL up to us.. in this case, ME... anyway, right?  So, while all of that is important, it's really not a big deal when it comes down to it.

It's just another decision that needs making.

Just freakin' make it happen already.  Whatever it is.  Get healthy!  Get passionate again!  FEEL something again!

What's the big deal?  The big deal is rediscovering health, vitality, vibrance, energy, the feeling of well being.  THAT is the big deal.

Healthy is sexy.  Feeling sexy... is such a turn-on.